Encouragement, validation and acceptance for my creativity and myself, is what I found in my Textile teacher. She stretched me and my ideas and challenged me to be more than I thought I ever could. She believed in me and I felt alive and awake, thriving in her presence. It was a time I believed in the possibility of everything and that everything was possible. That year I topped the state with my final year marks for Textiles.
The upside of this amazing year was a feeling of being filled and fulfilled, blissful in a time where I really needed to believe in myself and my direction … I was 17 and I felt I could do anything in the creative world.
However the Universe had some tough love lessons for me..
Since then, I’ve spent a lot of time trying to find that full feeling of external validation for who I am and my creativity. Universal experience has been a firm handed teacher with many life lessons over the years. Looking back I can see how reliant I was comments from others about my art and how this shaped my direction, trying to seek their approval and acceptance for validation.
Finally I came to the realization that I’m not able to gain that fullness of validation from any other individual: not my parents, nor my partner, not my children, friends, university lecturers, clients or even strangers. I now know that relying on external validation is a gamble at best. True validation is definitely an inside job! It comes from doing the work, refining my skills, knowing I am doing the best I can at the time, with no comparisons to anyone else and telling myself “Well Done”. It’s a way I can fill my heart regardless of anyone’s opinion.
Truly I am grateful for what I learnt about myself in that year. My kind hearted teacher gave me a kick start in a life lesson about self validation. I got to feel how amazing validation is at its fullest, what huge achievements I can reach when I believe in myself and what I’m creating, and what happens when I stretch beyond what I think I can do. Thank you KB, you gave me a wonderful gift.