Friday, March 4, 2011

Inner Rebel I Hear You!

guide me journal page

a bit of a story to share, but its worth the read!

Last night I woke at midnight with a thumping headache. It wasn’t from one to many wines, lord knows I wanted one or two, or from stress or anything logical. Maybe I put the voodoo on myself….before going to be I proclaimed to my hubby that I was sick of the heat, sick of feeling sweaty, sick of being thirsty, sick of drinking soooo much water that I have to go to the bathroom all the time…

I think you get the picture. So when I woke with a head ache, I thought “serves myself right. Just get on with it, its not going to last forever.” I took some headache pain relief, which I almost never do. I like to think + believe that my body can heal itself, but I just wasn’t up for the pain this time round.

I woke this morning to the sound of rain. Beautiful, calming rain. I gave away my 5am rising and stayed in bed and just listened to the rain. So grateful it was a little cooler, even just for a few hours.

This frustration has not only come from the weather. I’ve been retaking product photos and updating descriptions, which was fun at first. But I’m so over it. Yes Inner Rebel I hear you!!

Hoping back on the horse today to get this project finished I detoured a little into blog land. a little time out doesn’t hurt right?…. Where I discovered Kylie Johnson, at Instinct + Grace ; an amazing ceramic artist and poet who is selling to Anthropology. So what’s the big deal?….she’s Australian!

This fuels my fire. It encourages me to push through those times when I’m feeling hot and sweaty, to push through the boredom of the tedious, it encourages me to think “if she can do it so can I”.

So that’s where I’m at, knowing that the rewards do come with effort, knowing that what I’m doing is worthwhile, knowing that my Inner Rebel can go crazy after this project is finished, that I can turn the fan on and sing into it like the kids do, till I’m happy to come back to the computer and that Self Discipline is challenging but also rewarding….and just maybe I might indulge my cravings for spanakopita, chocolate and a journal page!.

13 comments:

Anonymous said...

Indeed, a post worth to read. I was writing a post feeling almost the same...I am so tired but I know the rewards of finishing a project are worth the hard work, no matter the circumstances, heat, cold, rain, boredom, fear..We have to be brave, to put our enerfy and desire to let the things we want happen...Go for it and finish what you already started. You are an amazing artist!

Kristin Dudish said...

Hooray for your inner rebel!
(I hope you're head is feeling better)

xo
Kristin

Kristin Dudish said...

*your (instead of you're)
I started with one train of thought and ended with another - sorry.

T'Rina said...

Really really lovely

sb Lyngo said...

Love the post! go on honor that inner rebel. You have a beautiful blog here and I love your work! Thanks for putting it out here. One Love & Blessings!

Carola Bartz said...

Hooray to that Inner Rebel!
Wow, and such a beautiful image. I had to come back to it every once in a while while I read your post. Very worthwhile to read btw - thank you.

Louise Elizabeth. Textile Designs ♥ said...

Nic I love your radiant honesty and sensitivity in the posts you publish. I have awarded you with a 'Stylish Blogger Award'

Best Wishes
Louise
x

Magpie said...

So lovely, and I enjoyed the story. Thanks for playing with us at Inspiration Avenue! I'm now a follower...

Amanda said...

Your art is beautiful and full of life. Your story with this piece is true and heartfelt. I can relate to what you have said. I feel that all good woman should have a little rebel inside! Good for you and hope you feel better.

priti.lisa said...

WoW. Your artwork is amazing...so GOOD. Yay for the inner rebel :)

WrightStuff said...

This feels really powerful - I think the b&w really helps. Great piece. I'm in awe!

gemma said...

What a relief the rain can be. I understand because I live in the desert. Change in Barometric pressure can make a welcome difference.

Kat W said...

Stunning art work - gorgeous & powerful. Wonderful take on the IA challenge theme.

Its funny about the rain because here in Cornwall, UK we beg for the rain to stop. Lol.

Go for it, I say - rebel, indulge & do what feels right in that moment! I'm sure it will lead to further inspiration.

Kat :-)