Thursday, June 10, 2010

all the signs are pointing in the same direction

today all the signs seem to be leading me to read, write and acknowledge being vulnerable and how important it is to live with an open heart.Whilst doing some exploring on the web I found this great article written by Martha Beck. Sometimes words just jump out at me, like they are specially written for me in that moment..."telling your story demolishes the barriers between your heart and the outside world". My story telling is not so literal, but visual through my art....

Then these great questions popped up about vulnerability when I went to visit Brene Browns blog. and I wrote and wrote pages of inspired words that flowed out. Here's some of my reflections....

For me, being vulnerable is a conscious decision. Its been too easy for too long to keep the barriers in place.Wanting to numb the incoming pain of rejection, non-acceptance and exclusion.Perhaps even inadequacy and seeking approval. A brave conscious decision to keep my heart open, no matter what. And to be totally me. To be ok with who ever I am in that moment.

It is only though the risk of vulnerability that I truly see who I am. To know that no matter what happens I'll be ok. That I can show up again and place my heart on the line, aware that I could be walking away with pain or dancing with the joy of a full heart. And either is ok, because its better than building up the walls, where nothing can get through.

Many times I've felt the pain and the nothingness. Now its time for me to choose self love and self acceptance and I won't have to experience the hurt to learn about loving with an open heart. and that being vulnerable is a challenging yet wonderful space to be in...


ps. this pic was taken in my laundry! The painting brings me so much joy, I can only but smile when I see it. Much more heart filling than looking at the pile of clothes waiting to be washed!! and yes its finally cold enough here for me to wear that new fluffy pink coat. oh its the small pleasures.....

14 comments:

Jen said...

I loved that Martha Beck article! Thank you for sharing. I need to stop and do some reflecting of my own =)

Lis said...

I am popping over from Flying Lessons and what a treat to find you! (really overwhelmed by the numbers in the course and craving connection.)

I love what you wrote but before the words sunk in, the radiance of you in that pink fuzzy jacket, hands in a heart spoke volumes! And I love how you said you use Twitter (something I have not ventured into yet) especially as the highlight of my day are my Tut messages. :)

I am just jumping in here, so maybe this is too broad a question: but how did you go about finding a manufacturer/printer for your cards? Is it local or online? I have an idea for a set/deck of cards and I need to begin to research the logistics of this.

Your cards are fantastic and you DO need to love them up and get them out and into hands/homes!

Have a beautiful day. Your smile made mine!

Juliette Crane said...

you have such a wonderful blog and i'm just loving the colors and beauty in your artwork! you are super inspiring and i can't wait to check out all of the books and links you've listed here! thank you!

see you in flying lessons!
xo, juliette

Anne said...

Hi from a fellow Kelly Rae classmate! I'm so glad I found your blog; it's so lovely.

I really like what you said about numbing yourself. I find that I do that all too often. Instead of really feeling and thinking and living.

Keep flying!

Kerri said...

U look so cute in the fluffy pink coat-my favorite color!

jacqueline said...

I am LOVING yout gorgeous photos! This post is so inspiring and heart-warming!! I am so with you on self love and self acceptance!!! Thanks so much for sharing wonderful article and blog! And most of all thanks so much for sharing your lovely work and self with us! Have a lovely merry happy day and love to yoU!

Anonymous said...

I see peace, acceptance and joy emanating from your gorgeous eyes dear Nic!!! You're in the flow!!! ps. did I tell you how much I adore your pink coat? Gxo

Nic Hohn said...

Thanks for your loving encouragement everyone....

and G thanks for your generous comment about my eyes! Truth is our 9 yr old has woken the last few nights at some awful early hour...so I'm grateful my eyes look gorgeous to you.xoxox

Jenny Wynter said...

Beautiful Nic. I too, am really conscious of being authentic, even when it means feeling vulnerable!

Love the shot of you in your laundry - dang, I wish mine had a gorgeous painting in it! Would cheer my heart immensely! :)

danikeith said...

i love that coat! it is so important to remember that we must love ourselves first, because we cannot share what we do not have...thank you for sharing and have a wonderful weekend!!

Dot said...

You are such a beautiful soul Nic. I love reading yuor words as you speak from the heart. And your pink jacket is perfect for my heart orientated friend.
Much love to you dear one.
Dot xx

Amy Lee said...

Dreams, vulnerability. Joy, life. Today it took me to show up just as I am, and man, did I surprise myself? and oh woman, did others support me?

Inviting you to deliver yourself vulnerability and dreams with another meeting in the awesome pink coat and some tender love and care!

Wini said...

Dear Nic, I'm visiting via the flying class. Your work and your blog are so beautiful. I love the colours and flowers. I'm so happy I stopped by! You are very brave to open your heart & be vulnerable. I know what the pain of rejection feels like and I'm not so brave.

olive + hope said...

Nic your posts speak to my heart. I am in a very similar place, keeping my heart open - no matter what. It's scary sometimes, but also sooo good! You talking about all of this, is what we connect with, and that is a very good reminder to be who we are - everywhere we show up. Thank you for that.