Loving the unknown

all those doors I painted really triggered something inside. and I'm wanting to paint. I haven't put brush to canvas for the longest time and have felt the inner callings to get back to it. maybe it was working through all that resistance, but I'm sure that something has unblocked and I'm feeling inspired again.

you know how much I love drawing grayscale portraits and I draw most of these on paper. I've been trying to figure out how to create these on canvas. A while ago I tried gluing paper onto the canvas+ drawing into it and that worked to a certain degree, but it didn't quite toot my horn. So I grabbed one of the canvas's I had in my studio and began reworking it. with paint, gesso and pen.

Whilst working on her face that little critical voice piped up telling me 'its not working, give up.' I thanked it for sharing and called on all the positive messages I could to affirm my creative skills. it felt like a turning point. so glad I was consious of it + I worked my way through it. so pleased I did. ahh painting can be such an emotional process....

I love where this is going. I love that I'm repurposing a canvas. I love that it feels like there is a challenge to create around what's already there, some boundary lines I can fall into.maybe for the first time I can say I am loving + trusting the unknown....